Thursday, July 9, 2009

My middle of the night cry for help.

I'm finding it impossible to go to sleep tonight. That's partially because my husband is snoring, but also because I've had some moments in the past few days that have made me realize there is a lot about my life I want to change. Change is hard for me though, I make personal decisions to do something and never followed through. I realized, as I was laying in bed listening to what sounded like an angry grizzly bear, that it's because I don't hold myself accountable. I need help with that part, which brings me to you. I know I just started this blog and not so many people have come across it yet, but I need some help.
After my last post I decided that I would post my list of things I wanted to do before I was 30, but I've decided that can wait. I have a lot of things I need to do now that I haven't done. I have a number of good excuses, 3 of which are my children. I'm done making excuses. I am making a list of things I'm going to have done a year from now and I will work hard at achieving that goal because I am making a public proclamation. I will post that list for the whole of cyberspace to see, and then as I accomplish a task I will cross it off the list and let everyone know I am one step closer. It sounds silly I know, I'm hoping that I will have your support, because it won't be easy for me. It is late so I hope this doesn't sound like the rantings of a crazy person. I'm going to post the list tomorrow. Thanks for listening and I hope you all are having pleasant dreams.